What little experience Jyn had in matters like these hadn't felt anything like this - they had been rushed and rarely ever allowed for the type of exploration she and Rilio were engaging in.
And it was good. Better than she had ever dreamed possible. And all they had done thus far was share kisses, undress each other, trade touches. Just the thought of the actual moment of ... connection was enough to brighten already flushed cheeks, steal away more of her already unsteady breaths. Every atom in her body ached for it.
He settled his palm against her knee, and Jyn shivered at the pleasant heat resting there. But as he slid his fingers a little further, and asked the question, her arched eyebrow suggested just a hint of befuddlement.
Are you sure? His eyes skimmed her face a moment longer… then he smiled, and pressed another kiss. He believed her. (Trusted her.)
Below, he traced a soft circle beside her knee, a trail up the inside of her thigh. Keeping his attention fixed on her reactions—tension, movement, heartrate, breath, expression—for the slightest sign she wanted him to stop. If none came… his fingertips moved at last to the softness and heat they sought; gentle, exploratory, entranced.
She trusted him. And it was that smile - that soft, fleeting smile that cemented that thought in her mind. (How could she possibly say goodbye when the time came? It was going to prove nearly impossible.)
Jyn sighed and tried to relax underneath such tender touches, muscles twitching underneath the thin skin he teased with his fingertips. She didn't close her legs, didn't tense up, and the only noises she made were small and pleased.
And then he touched her there, and she was almost sure she'd never breathe properly again. Nobody else had ever touched or treated her so reverently before.
Jyn didn't want to have to derail things in order to explain - not only had she never had the time for anything other than quick fucks in dark places, nobody had ever really treated her with this much kindness.
"I know", she murmured, and she did. "It's not that I don't want it. It's just - it's new. It's good."
That brought another, even warmer, glad, smile to his lips.
"Let me know anytime it isn't," he murmured, moving his lips close to her ear. Then finished the move inward to brush his lips to her neck, the hinge of her jaw, behind her ear below her hairline; light kisses from her pulse point to other sensitive places and back.
At the same time, his hand moved again, more gently still; four fingers finding resting places; and the fifth settling, gentle and warm and carrying its own echo of his heartbeat, to the spot it sought… and began, so lightly, to trace tiny tight circles on her there.
The smile was beautiful on him - made him appear softer and younger, and Jyn hoped that she wouldn't forget, that she'd be able to conjure this exact image when she was at her lowest (when she needed him the most).
She tried to vocalize the agreement that she would, in fact, tell him if she didn't like anything that he did (not bloody likely), but her soft utterance quickly shifted and changed into a moan as he kissed her neck, her jaw, behind her ear, her pulse point ...
Every single spot so alive and sensitive, her nerve endings singing in perfect harmony as he showed attention to them in turn.
And then, he touched her - with such gentleness and such care but also clearly with intent and she couldn't help the deep shudder that wracked her from head to foot ... and back again.
His free hand lay flat between the mattress and the small of her back. He took the opportunity to slide it free, raise it to rest his head on his own bicep and gently sweep his fingers into her hair.
Further down, he lightened the touch a little without removing it or ceasing the motion. (Insofar as gendered generalizations existed, female anatomy more often thrived with cumulation.)
The dramatic reaction seemed like a good one. He didn't want to annoy or overload her with verbal check-ins, but he'd far rather err on that side than the other. More vibration than speech, against her skin, one more gentle: "Yeah?"
It all felt so unbearably soft that Jyn didn't know as if it was something that she deserved to have - to feel so adored, and not having earned or deserved it.
When she did this herself - and she did from time to time, when she was bothered by an itch that needed scratching, it was never quite so gentle, never anything other than fast and efficient and boring. But this, with Rilio, was anything but.
Far from being annoyed by the checking-in (was she worthy of such care?), Jyn appreciated the care he took in ensuring that she was still with him and wanting everything he was doing. "Yes - ", she replied, barely louder than a breath, unaware as her hips began rocking in time to the rhythm of his fingers. "S'good. So good."
What was more beautiful… her breathing, the movement of her hips, the sound of her voice affirming and encouraging more… He needed her, he needed to breathe her in. He bent his face to her throat to do so; tracing the curve of her neck with his nose and lips; taking her in like she was coming up from underwater; managing to whisper back, "Good," with all the breathless intensity and mutualness of feeling as hers had been. And he began to kiss her neck, arch from shoulder to jaw, under and behind her ear, along her throat, everywhere he wanted to feel her skin on his lips, her pulse, her scent, slaking his thirst for her. And in her lap, his devoted lapping of her hard pulse there with his finger picked up. Rubbing was too forceful and clumsy a word; he fluidly stroked and swirled her there, the gentle pad of his finger never breaking contact, making the stimulation uninterrupted, like flowing water… and, daring a little, another of his fingers curved inward, brushing her lower, and, through her underclothes, dipping a little, the slightest push into her softest warmth.
Jyn had enough presence of mind to tip her chin up, allowing more access to her neck and shoulder, her breathing all the more labored as he lavished attention to parts of her body that she never would have imagined could bring her such intense pleasure, her heart pounding and her head spinning with every press of lips to heated skin.
She shivered under the ministration of his fingers, too, every teasing swipe more than enough to send sparks rocketing through her nervous system, hitting each nerve ending in turn, leaving her gasping in their wake.
And then she felt another finger slip a little lower, felt the initial exploratory press inside - something that even she had never done herself - and couldn't help the low, keening whine as it forced its way past her parted lips.
He put his mouth where her pulse beat in her throat; feeding it warmth, feeling it through him in time with his own thudding heart; following where she flexed, where she gave him room, with his breath and lips and tongue and everything; torn between wanting to replace his fingers with his mouth upon her there but also relishing this right now, the scent of her, the taste, where he already was…
And then that keening sound undid him totally, and he met her lips with his, no less focused on giving but also allowing, from himself, a little more need. Then began to kiss his way down her body; eyes frequently flickering up to hers in tacit request for permission. Until his lips reached her waistband, and his free hand (not so meticulously, most importantly devoted) raised to it, fingers curving a little, not enough to actually push it, just enough to make the intention plain; and he didn't just raise his eyes to hers but his voice again—if only managing a breathy whisper: "May I?"
Jyn hadn't known that she still had the capability to feel. But every press of lips to skin caused the blood in her veins to catch fire, and every brush of fingers against slick skin had her shivering as sparks cascaded from the top of her spine all the way down. It was too much, too much, too much and yet not enough and she didn't want it to have to end.
And any lingering guilt she may have felt about taking advantage or his doing this only as a result of the after-effects of what he'd been dosed with, but when he was suddenly kissing her into incoherence, his own desire as clearly obvious as hers, she felt the last vestiges of that worry slowly fade way.
Breathless, wanting, she watched as he blazed a trail down her trembling torso, keeping her eyes focused on his, silently granting the permission to continue that he was looking for. It was only where he reached his intended destination that he broke eye contact, and Jyn closed hers, taking a deep breath in the hopes that it would calm her overworked and overwrought nerves.
His breath wafted across her skin one more time, and goosebumps cropped up in their wake. Jyn shivered pleasantly, her voice low and raspy when she found enough of it to reply, "Please - ".
Suffused with trust, belief as much as desire… he believed her. They trusted each other. They were here together, both wanting the same way, the same things
—Jactna, shavit, idiot, you've known her no more than ten hours…
To that part of his brain he easily said, I don't care.
He trusted her. He believed her. When she so thrillingly reassured and urged him on.
As—lovingly?—as he'd done everything else, he gently pulled down her last layer of clothes. Keeping his fingertips on her as if monitoring her pulse… and he was, in a way, but not dispassionately, not clinically. Just making sure, as he leaned in to her again, that she still was with him, wanting the same.
And kept doing so until his lips met her skin again, and he began kissing her as deeply and completely as before, in this new place.
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Date: 2019-12-12 12:10 am (UTC)And it was good. Better than she had ever dreamed possible. And all they had done thus far was share kisses, undress each other, trade touches. Just the thought of the actual moment of ... connection was enough to brighten already flushed cheeks, steal away more of her already unsteady breaths. Every atom in her body ached for it.
He settled his palm against her knee, and Jyn shivered at the pleasant heat resting there. But as he slid his fingers a little further, and asked the question, her arched eyebrow suggested just a hint of befuddlement.
Despite that, her answer was always going to be -
"Yes."
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Date: 2019-12-12 06:01 am (UTC)Below, he traced a soft circle beside her knee, a trail up the inside of her thigh. Keeping his attention fixed on her reactions—tension, movement, heartrate, breath, expression—for the slightest sign she wanted him to stop. If none came… his fingertips moved at last to the softness and heat they sought; gentle, exploratory, entranced.
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Date: 2019-12-12 07:35 am (UTC)Jyn sighed and tried to relax underneath such tender touches, muscles twitching underneath the thin skin he teased with his fingertips. She didn't close her legs, didn't tense up, and the only noises she made were small and pleased.
And then he touched her there, and she was almost sure she'd never breathe properly again. Nobody else had ever touched or treated her so reverently before.
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Date: 2019-12-12 07:43 am (UTC)"Still okay?" he breathed. "You can always say, if it's not. Nothing you don't want."
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Date: 2019-12-12 08:01 am (UTC)"I know", she murmured, and she did. "It's not that I don't want it. It's just - it's new. It's good."
Better than.
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Date: 2019-12-19 09:23 am (UTC)"Let me know anytime it isn't," he murmured, moving his lips close to her ear. Then finished the move inward to brush his lips to her neck, the hinge of her jaw, behind her ear below her hairline; light kisses from her pulse point to other sensitive places and back.
At the same time, his hand moved again, more gently still; four fingers finding resting places; and the fifth settling, gentle and warm and carrying its own echo of his heartbeat, to the spot it sought… and began, so lightly, to trace tiny tight circles on her there.
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Date: 2019-12-26 06:45 am (UTC)when she needed him the most).She tried to vocalize the agreement that she would, in fact, tell him if she didn't like anything that he did (not bloody likely), but her soft utterance quickly shifted and changed into a moan as he kissed her neck, her jaw, behind her ear, her pulse point ...
Every single spot so alive and sensitive, her nerve endings singing in perfect harmony as he showed attention to them in turn.
And then, he touched her - with such gentleness and such care but also clearly with intent and she couldn't help the deep shudder that wracked her from head to foot ... and back again.
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Date: 2019-12-29 08:47 am (UTC)Further down, he lightened the touch a little without removing it or ceasing the motion. (Insofar as gendered generalizations existed, female anatomy more often thrived with cumulation.)
The dramatic reaction seemed like a good one. He didn't want to annoy or overload her with verbal check-ins, but he'd far rather err on that side than the other. More vibration than speech, against her skin, one more gentle: "Yeah?"
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Date: 2020-01-13 06:07 am (UTC)When she did this herself - and she did from time to time, when she was bothered by an itch that needed scratching, it was never quite so gentle, never anything other than fast and efficient and boring. But this, with Rilio, was anything but.
Far from being annoyed by the checking-in (was she worthy of such care?), Jyn appreciated the care he took in ensuring that she was still with him and wanting everything he was doing. "Yes - ", she replied, barely louder than a breath, unaware as her hips began rocking in time to the rhythm of his fingers. "S'good. So good."
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Date: 2020-01-15 09:11 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2020-01-28 07:26 am (UTC)She shivered under the ministration of his fingers, too, every teasing swipe more than enough to send sparks rocketing through her nervous system, hitting each nerve ending in turn, leaving her gasping in their wake.
And then she felt another finger slip a little lower, felt the initial exploratory press inside - something that even she had never done herself - and couldn't help the low, keening whine as it forced its way past her parted lips.
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Date: 2020-02-02 09:50 am (UTC)And then that keening sound undid him totally, and he met her lips with his, no less focused on giving but also allowing, from himself, a little more need. Then began to kiss his way down her body; eyes frequently flickering up to hers in tacit request for permission. Until his lips reached her waistband, and his free hand (not so meticulously, most importantly devoted) raised to it, fingers curving a little, not enough to actually push it, just enough to make the intention plain; and he didn't just raise his eyes to hers but his voice again—if only managing a breathy whisper: "May I?"
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Date: 2020-02-09 08:54 pm (UTC)And any lingering guilt she may have felt about taking advantage or his doing this only as a result of the after-effects of what he'd been dosed with, but when he was suddenly kissing her into incoherence, his own desire as clearly obvious as hers, she felt the last vestiges of that worry slowly fade way.
Breathless, wanting, she watched as he blazed a trail down her trembling torso, keeping her eyes focused on his, silently granting the permission to continue that he was looking for. It was only where he reached his intended destination that he broke eye contact, and Jyn closed hers, taking a deep breath in the hopes that it would calm her overworked and overwrought nerves.
His breath wafted across her skin one more time, and goosebumps cropped up in their wake. Jyn shivered pleasantly, her voice low and raspy when she found enough of it to reply, "Please - ".
How did I lose this?? Ack! Sorry!! But I did just massively enjoy rereading all of it ^_^ ^_^ <3
Date: 2020-03-03 09:57 am (UTC)Suffused with trust, belief as much as desire… he believed her. They trusted each other. They were here together, both wanting the same way, the same things
—Jactna, shavit, idiot, you've known her no more than ten hours…
To that part of his brain he easily said, I don't care.
He trusted her. He believed her. When she so thrillingly reassured and urged him on.
As—lovingly?—as he'd done everything else, he gently pulled down her last layer of clothes. Keeping his fingertips on her as if monitoring her pulse… and he was, in a way, but not dispassionately, not clinically. Just making sure, as he leaned in to her again, that she still was with him, wanting the same.
And kept doing so until his lips met her skin again, and he began kissing her as deeply and completely as before, in this new place.