It honesty wounds me that you would even think that you would have to sweet-talk me into agreeing to conspire with you. It's like you don't even know me at all.
[It's both. One can't survive the things that Cassian has without a little luck on their side - no matter how prepared or resourceful they are. He should know that she know that he's the best at what he does.
She frowns at the message. Without being there in person to hear him say it, she can't gauge whether or not it's a genuine statement or sarcasm.
And she doubts that she could tell even if they were standing together, talking.]
I think we could all use a little luck sometimes.
[A moment later - she's still not so good at this ... ]
Cue mild panic. It’s one thing to be pining for someone who’s obviously way out of your league, but suddenly she’s into him after all? Or something. Because a date? And getting— ]
Sure But, you know I think we should do this properly Dinner?
[ Well, before he went on this suicide mission to the past he was the son of a senator, so. ]
I certainly hope so. These long stretches apart, however necessary, are not easy.
Hm. I like it when you get impatient like that, although I have had to mend most of my tunics. That is not a complaint, there's something exciting about the haste in which you want to undress me.
Oh, I think there's always room to explore. And if not, we can fall back on familiar favorites. And, trust me, I am very interested in all of those choices. All of them. You know, I've done lots of things with you that I've never considered doing with anybody else.
I don't really undress you so much as I thoroughly destroy whatever barrier is keeping me from kissing and licking my way over every inch of that gorgeous fucking body.
Glad to hear it, because we're going to do a lot. Gods, I remember seeing you at the kissing booth and thinking my dreams had come bloody true.
I know. I've repaired so many items of ripped clothing, I've lost count. That's hardly a complaint, though. It's always incredibly exciting to find out firsthand just how impatient you are to have me at your mercy.
Bring it on. I'm fairly certain I can handle whatever we try. I had been wondering just what I'd gotten myself roped into, and there you were. And after that, I didn't even see anyone else. I haven't looked back since, and I've never been more glad for it.
[It doesn't seem right to make light of what he's saying, so, yes, even though they are currently apart, Jyn is taking every single word seriously. Maybe once she returns, they can go a little more in depth.]
if we did i'm glad i'm still with you that somehow we've managed to take those little pieces of each other with us when we're apart i still feel close to you even though i'm far away you are always with me and i am always with you always will be
[Oh, Cassian ... ]
i don't know if i believed in meant to be before i met you but now i do because nothing else makes sense i want so much with you all the things i never allowed myself to want before with you, cassian only ever with you
you are my person you are my home you have all of me no matter where we go or what we do you always will always
[She laughs then, a weepy little noise, grateful for the moment of levity.]
i can't take credit for that i'm only following your lead
you are my person you are my home you have all of me you always will always
[it's like exchanging an oath]
for all the evidence ive seen of it i didnt really believe in the Force until you
oh really ? well its amazing how it doesnt feel like leading to me i love how in sync we are - how everything feels mutual always have even before getting this new dimension
[It does feel very much like exchanging an oath - maybe not officially, but to each other, and it's a promise that she intends to keep.]
I'm so glad were in agreement, then. i know im away right now but that doesn't change the fact that by your side is the only place i want to be
[Some more of that elusive levity ... ]
and in your bed but given the original nature of this conversation, i think that goes without saying (and underneath you or on top of you or to the side of you ... )
i cant say that i understand the Force any better than i did before but i felt it and i knew it to be true when we were one
yes i told you you are my first and only every experience i have with you is new to me but it's so easy to feel inspired with you i want to try so many things
not just in bed u know i want an entire life with you
[there's no way to convey over a commpad what reading those words did to him. Washed through him, unknotting him down to the atom, so he could almost sink through the planet. Yes. Rest.]
Yes, that's
I've never been able to rest fully, without you I'm so glad to have met you so I finally understand it
[Rest. Formerly only a luxury mostly dreamed about. But it's become easier to find with Cassian by her side, even if that luxury is little more than succumbing to shared exhaustion and falling asleep together in a bunk that's almost too small to hold the both of them.
The point is - rest usually only ever comes when they're together. Unexpected, to say the least, but not unwanted.]
If you're anything like me, Cassian, you never want to give it up, either.
[Of course Jyn doesn't know the specifics, but she doesn't think that she needs to. Just seeing Cassian and his quarters a little messy is more than enough clue as to the turmoil he's facing on the inside.
She pauses for a moment in order to place the bottles of water she's procured from the cantina in a neat line on his desk, and then gestures toward the bed, like she wants him to sit first. And she does. Maybe it won't help with his restless energy, but it will put her a little bit more at ease to know that he's trying to recuperate properly.
She'll take the chair.
If he wants distraction, distraction he will get. Jyn doesn't necessarily think that she's the best with small talk, but if it takes focus away from whatever is causing his strife, she'll try.]
I've always wondered - do you have any hobbies? Something you like to do in your spare time?
[Not that they're granted the luxury of much spare time. Still, it seems as good a question as any - and she really does want to know.]
[He nods with heavy gratitude at her, however subtly, taking the lead. Thank you. He's never been good at doing what's right for himself, while she's been good at leading where he's wanted to go. He shouldn't lean on her so much for it… (which is why you shouldn't karking say things)
He picks up one of the water bottles and sits on the bed. He takes a long drink, hoping he can hasten the flushing of his system.
Then she speaks like this is anytime, anyplace, and they're relaxed, and he actually smiles (despite still feeling the tremors).]
I'm… honestly not sure. Most of what I know, about anything, I learned for work. Or how to make it work. For myself or for a character I played. Going all the way back… I never played with other kids. We were all soldiers. We drilled.
I guess when I'm in hyperspace, coming back, job's over, and there's nothing to do. Sometimes, to stop thinking, I watch kids' shows. They're the only programming reliably free of… what I get enough of at work.
[Jyn easily welcomes Cassian into her personal space - finds no reason at all to shrink away. He curls an arm loosely around her, and like it's as natural as breathing, she leans into his side, her eyes on his, not wanting to break contact for a moment.]
I - [she starts, pausing, taking a deep breath, thinking it through] I was serious. But we can start off slow, too, take our time. Doesn't matter as long as it's with you.
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I know. But I'm still here.
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Oh, now you're just trying to sweet talk me.
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[It's both. One can't survive the things that Cassian has without a little luck on their side - no matter how prepared or resourceful they are. He should know that she know that he's the best at what he does.
She frowns at the message. Without being there in person to hear him say it, she can't gauge whether or not it's a genuine statement or sarcasm.
And she doubts that she could tell even if they were standing together, talking.]
I think we could all use a little luck sometimes.
[A moment later - she's still not so good at this ... ]
I'm sorry if I upset you.
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[Oh, he's still not getting it. And sure, maybe there was a better way to go about this, but it's not like Jyn can take it back now.]
Maybe I can tag along and help out if you need it.
Maybe we can make a date of it.
If you want.
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... OH.
Cue mild panic. It’s one thing to be pining for someone who’s obviously way out of your league, but suddenly she’s into him after all? Or something. Because a date? And getting— ]
Sure
But, you know
I think we should do this properly
Dinner?
[ Well, before he went on this suicide mission to the past he was the son of a senator, so. ]
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A more open conversation is going to have to be had at some point, but this is a good first step toward that.
Maybe. It's not like Jyn knows much about dating or intimacy or anything of the sort, but ... she wants to be.
And it's comforting to feel like Jacen does, too.]
I could do dinner.
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Well, you never know. A life of crime probably sounds exciting to a lot of people.
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I certainly hope so. These long stretches apart, however necessary, are not easy.
Hm. I like it when you get impatient like that, although I have had to mend most of my tunics. That is not a complaint, there's something exciting about the haste in which you want to undress me.
Oh, I think there's always room to explore. And if not, we can fall back on familiar favorites. And, trust me, I am very interested in all of those choices. All of them. You know, I've done lots of things with you that I've never considered doing with anybody else.
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Glad to hear it, because we're going to do a lot. Gods, I remember seeing you at the kissing booth and thinking my dreams had come bloody true.
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Bring it on. I'm fairly certain I can handle whatever we try. I had been wondering just what I'd gotten myself roped into, and there you were. And after that, I didn't even see anyone else. I haven't looked back since, and I've never been more glad for it.
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[It doesn't seem right to make light of what he's saying, so, yes, even though they are currently apart, Jyn is taking every single word seriously. Maybe once she returns, they can go a little more in depth.]
if we did
i'm glad i'm still with you
that somehow we've managed to take those little pieces of each other with us
when we're apart
i still feel close to you
even though i'm far away
you are always with me
and i am always with you
always will be
[Oh, Cassian ... ]
i don't know if i believed in meant to be
before i met you
but now i do
because nothing else makes sense
i want so much with you
all the things i never allowed myself to want before
with you, cassian
only ever with you
you are my person
you are my home
you have all of me
no matter where we go or what we do
you always will
always
[She laughs then, a weepy little noise, grateful for the moment of levity.]
i can't take credit for that
i'm only following your lead
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you are my home
you have all of me
you always will
always
[it's like exchanging an oath]
for all the evidence ive seen of it
i didnt really believe in the Force until you
oh really ?
well its amazing how it doesnt feel like leading to me
i love how in sync we are - how everything feels mutual
always have
even before getting this new dimension
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I'm so glad were in agreement, then.
i know im away right now
but that doesn't change the fact
that by your side is the only place i want to be
[Some more of that elusive levity ... ]
and in your bed but given the original nature of this conversation, i think that goes without saying
(and underneath you or on top of you or to the side of you ... )
i cant say that i understand the Force any better than i did before
but i felt it and i knew it to be true
when we were one
yes
i told you you are my first and only
every experience i have with you is new to me
but it's so easy to feel inspired with you
i want to try so many things
not just in bed u know
i want an entire life with you
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I know the feeling.
It's like I can't feel at ease until I see for myself that you're safe.
You'll see me soon and then we can rest.
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Yes, that's
I've never been able to rest fully, without you
I'm so glad to have met you so I finally understand it
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The point is - rest usually only ever comes when they're together. Unexpected, to say the least, but not unwanted.]
If you're anything like me, Cassian, you never want to give it up, either.
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I bet.
[Of course Jyn doesn't know the specifics, but she doesn't think that she needs to. Just seeing Cassian and his quarters a little messy is more than enough clue as to the turmoil he's facing on the inside.
She pauses for a moment in order to place the bottles of water she's procured from the cantina in a neat line on his desk, and then gestures toward the bed, like she wants him to sit first. And she does. Maybe it won't help with his restless energy, but it will put her a little bit more at ease to know that he's trying to recuperate properly.
She'll take the chair.
If he wants distraction, distraction he will get. Jyn doesn't necessarily think that she's the best with small talk, but if it takes focus away from whatever is causing his strife, she'll try.]
I've always wondered - do you have any hobbies? Something you like to do in your spare time?
[Not that they're granted the luxury of much spare time. Still, it seems as good a question as any - and she really does want to know.]
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He picks up one of the water bottles and sits on the bed. He takes a long drink, hoping he can hasten the flushing of his system.
Then she speaks like this is anytime, anyplace, and they're relaxed, and he actually smiles (despite still feeling the tremors).]
I'm… honestly not sure. Most of what I know, about anything, I learned for work. Or how to make it work. For myself or for a character I played. Going all the way back… I never played with other kids. We were all soldiers. We drilled.
I guess when I'm in hyperspace, coming back, job's over, and there's nothing to do. Sometimes, to stop thinking, I watch kids' shows. They're the only programming reliably free of… what I get enough of at work.
That's a lousy answer. How about you?
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[Jyn easily welcomes Cassian into her personal space - finds no reason at all to shrink away. He curls an arm loosely around her, and like it's as natural as breathing, she leans into his side, her eyes on his, not wanting to break contact for a moment.]
I - [she starts, pausing, taking a deep breath, thinking it through] I was serious. But we can start off slow, too, take our time. Doesn't matter as long as it's with you.
!
[He snugged his arm around her more fully and bent his face to her hair, pressing it with a kiss.]
Looks like you just got in. Can I help you with… anything?
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